Friday, June 20, 2008

Long Time Coming

Wow its been a quick minute since I have posted anything. Its been tough trying to keep up with everything now that I am back in class so please forgive my absence. I will start posting more often.

To be truthful with you, I have really let the winds out of my sails. I dont know what is wrong with me but I just dont feel so gung ho about losing weight anymore. I dont know if any of you are experiencing this or have. I have a friend that I keep in contact with via email and blogs, I always considered myself following in his footsteps. He did such a great job losing weight and he looks great. But I remember him talking about keeping his motivation. When he was talking about this, I never grasped what he truly meant by needing to keep up and or find his motivation till now. I feel so unmotivated its depressing. I still go do my workouts, and I have been eating clean. But the fire just isn't there. Its almost as if I'm starting to see my body and getting comfortable with it. I truly dont want that. I dont want to be comfortable with a body that is still considered overweight.

I can say that I truly am following in my friend's footsteps. And bro I loved following in your weight loss foot steps but I wish I could have taken a different path with the motivational problems lmao.

1 comment:

Andy said...

Juan...Juan!!!! Brother hear me out on this one coz it's a mouthful.

I'm still here for you and I will never stop motivating you to carry on with this journey. I will be the first to say it: don't ever think about quitting, man. Don't ever tell yourself to quit. That would bum me out big time if you did because I know you can do this. There's alot of twists and turns in life that we all tend to want to find the back alley way through those tight, dark situations..

Finding motivation is the single most difficult thing to do. Sometimes all I have to do is just look at yourself in the mirror and face it head on and practice patience. The motivation lies in you my friend..Visualize what you want to be and you will be it. I can almost guarantee it if you do that everyday you get up. Just have a visual about it everyday you get up in the morning and you will be whoever you want to be. Just take a few steps back, take a deep breath and re-focus. Your patience is being tested here with a few falls along the way but you just have to carry on. If you have to take a break..take one. But always remember to keep the bigger picture in mind...always. The contest is great motivation but the real motivation comes from within. It's hard to explain...it really is but I hope you get the picture here.

Never allow life's circumstances to push you down and hold you under. I'll never say it was easy by one iota. This shit (sorry) is really hard to do...and I'm in those shoes everyday. But you got to stick with it my friend and have the desire to want it.

It took me 2 long years to get to this point. I knew going into this was not going to be easy but I told myself that I wanted to make that change. And I sacrificed alot of things in the process like not eating certain foods at home and at work that I used to. Dropping desserts all together, getting my butt up early in the morining even on days I didnt want to workout...even dropped a few great lunch buddies at work (we're still friends but they've accepted my reasons for eating a little more cleaner). I never wanted to feel alienated in that way, but slowly but surely I knew I wasn't doing these things for them. I was doing it for me. And the next thing you know...bam! You get closer and closer to those goals. Again it's not easy...it's hard but you really have to keep that fire burning every single day and find those reasons "why we do it."

So I strived harder and harder each day at the gym, failing with my nutrition almost everyday (I'm never close to 100% compliance), busy balancing family and work, going through the pains in life we all have to endure (my car got stolen, new born baby, 2 jobs)...nothing in life has an easy ticket my friend.

That being said, re-plan your attack here. Find a renewed focus to carry on. It may be slow and steady...but that's how you should take it: one day at a time, bro. Yes, it may be slow sometimes..but youre steadily getting there. I look at your pictures and I always tell myself..."that's one driven man right there." It's the normal joes like you that make normal joes like me want to strive for everyday. Sometimes those bumps in the road are just a part of it man. Everybody wants the fastest, easiest way to fat loss. Although nice..those approached usually get them right back to square 1. you don't want to be those people Juan.

Brother, this is a road we took together and will continue together through good times and the bad. There really is no magic trick to it... just alot of soul searching and re-focusing of our goals from time to time.

Seems like you may need to take a week's off. I think it's best at this point you do with your shoulder and all.

I'm still here and will be here to keep you going brother. There are alot of reasons to not to do it but think of the reasons why we should do it. That's the hardest part of it all and it's not easy. I would be lying to you if I said it was. But hang in there, stay strong and keep it the motivation going.

Andyh